I was playing with Tristan's pocket knife last night and cut my thumb *stupid self*.
I found out today that my cousin is potentially pregnant. That is, my mom was on the phone talking to my aunt about it and I could hear her through these very thin walls and she said that my cousin was pregnant and was going to get an abortion because she doesn't want my grandparents to know (which they do anyways) and then I asked if she had a reliable source (she wouldn't say who told her) and she said no. So I am really confused. I am hoping that it didn't happen yet selfishly wanting it to because then I could potentially get closer to said cousin and there would be a baby :) But, for her own good, I hope it was false information.
I am very much in love with Tristan, I've decided. I want to marry him. And I know that I was saying things like that when I was with Reid, and look what happened there, but this is totally different. With him, I was always saying how I wanted it but he never brought it up or anything, and ... with him, he often lives in his own little world... I don't really know how to explain it.
But with Tristan, things are so much more real. It's difficult to explain. But as long as I understand it, and I do, then it's ok. No one else needs to.
I am quite confused about a best friend. No idea what's up with said friend.
A second best friend, I want to help but don't know how. I suppose there's nothing I can do.
A third best friend, I am sympathizing with. It sucks, terribly, I know. All I can do is be here.
The fourth best friend, I barely talk to. As is always the way during summers, but we won't see each other at school in the fall like we have the past 12 years.
And Reid, I consider my friend, but I don't know how long that'll last cause who knows, it may turn weird. We'll see.
My oldest sister is worried, my other sister is opinionated, and I've said 10 words to my brother all year. It's not because we dislike each other, it's just that we don't ever talk.
My dad is concerned, my mom knows everything (I have concluded after this morning's chat).
My nana is overprotective of her youngest.
And this song is very fitting for everything, it seems.